I miss you. A lot. As I think of you the tears arise. I sit here rmembering the past and my heart breaks anew.
I know I have been so weak lately. I have needed you so bad. I am sorry for that. I never want to be weak in front of you. I know that as long as I am there is no hope of us ever getting back together again. In actual fact I doubt there would be any hope even if I was strong.
That hope is all that keeps me going.
I hurt Allie. So bad. Even after a year I can barely survive it. The pain is so intense.
I promise to try to be stronger, if my promises are worth anything to you now.
I sob every time I think of you in his arms. In his bed.
I am sorry Allie. Know that I will always love you. You were my first and only true love. You always will be. Always and forever.
With endless love,