Hello darkness my old friend
We are joined once again
I screwed everything all up
I know I did it in closeup
She was giving me a chance
Now I see it’s gone at a glance
She whispers she loves him
Tears fill my eyes to the brim
Why does she hide it?
It’s over, I see it
I blew my one and only chance
Amongst us there’s no romance
For the first time in a month or more
Me she does at last ignore
This is the first day I’ve not seen her
I feel like me she did spur
Tomorrow I will see her no more
Than today I’ve seen her for
She is camping with him
Making me so eternally grim
I’ve gotten what I deserve
I will never get up the nerve
To face her with that I love you
But that is what I should have knew
She is not trash or a whore
She does not sleep with any bore
She is a magical woman, a true laday
Who would not waste her time on someone so shady
She loves him, this I know
Because my ears tell me so
She says to him I love you
Yet never she says that to me too
When the night has come
And the darkness has come
There is no way she’ll stand by me
Not over him
She says she is dones with him
Yet last night she whispered I love you
And tonight she likely spends with him
Is this the end? Lord I pray not.
With all my soul and all my heart I beg you
Give me another chance
Yet chances are like a drying up stream
Eventaully they run out
I fear mine have run out
I fear that there is nothing I can do
To bring her back to me
She will nnever love me again.
Oh she says she does
But she does not
She loves him
I have lost her forever
Yet I rebel against that.
After almost 41 years there has to be a way
Or is that just me fooling myself?
I know this… I cannot live without her.
Much as I value life anymore
As much as I know my kids and grandkids need me
As much as I know it sets a bad precedent
As many times AQs I’ve tried and failed
I cannot live without her.
She is my whole entire life.
Forgive me please for what is coming.
I see it coming. I try like hell to resist it.
Yet I can see myself slipping away.
Do not pity me or feel sorry for me.
I have only brought this on myself. It is ny just rewards.
Please no comments or shares or anything else
Let me slip away into the night.