Another relationship with a guy has come to a disappointing abrupt end. I’m not the kind of person to argue, negotiate and try to convince a person that what they are saying/doing is wrong. It’s their decision, I just accept it as that! I can’t prove my worth – you can’t see it anyway.
Tell me it’s over and I walk away. Lie to me I walk away. Cheat on me I walk away. Treat me badly I walk away.
Once upon a time I would’ve fought for what I wanted, for a person I adored. But life has taught me if they don’t want to be with you, then they DONT want to be with you.
Sitting in silence my heart aches, my mind a tornado of thoughts that can’t be understood. Every now and again a thought pushes it’s way to the top, but I have to keep reminding myself this will pass, I will survive this heartache. He is not worth this sorrow I am feeling, he is not worth the grief that encompasses my whole being making my body cold and numb. Yet I grieve what I thought I had, I berate myself and ridicule my choices. Another moment of pure pain in my heart ruining my positivity and faith in life.
I’m tired, and I’ve had enough of this life.