My Prayer

Dear Father above,

We need to talk. It’s been too long.

I’ve blamed You for turning Your back on me when it was I who turned his back on You. I felt like You’d abandoned me when it was in fact I who had abandoned you.

I am sorry Father. You, who have an all merciful heart, please forgive me.

Thank You for Your blessings. I may be losing everything but You have given me kids and grandkids who are all healthy. Thank You for them.

I am almost at the end of my rope Father above. I can’t take much more. I no longer have my wife to lean on. I have no one left to lean on so now I turn to You. I know I should have turned to You sooner but in my false pride I tried to do it all myself. I’m realizing now that I can’t. It’s impossible. If I keep going this way then I fear I will lose my life too.

I can’t do it without You. I need someone, something to lean on.

I pray to You regularly but it is always to ask for something for someone else. Now I humbly turn to You and ask for soemthing for myself.

I’m at my wits end and feel like I can’t go on. I want to quit, to die at long last. Without You I am lost for good.

So I ask dear Father, no I beg You, please give me the strength to go on. To face my crumbling life and, with Your help, to make it through to the other side. I can’t do this alone and I am so alone without You.

Forgive me my sins. My pride. Forgive me for not turning to You sooner. Forgive me for turning away from You. Please hold me in Your hand an give me the strength I need to go on.

Thank You for listening most holy Father above. I am turning it all over to You. Let YOUR will be done, not mine. I know that with Your strength I can survive all of this.

With the most humble apologies I am Your servant,