So, I live in a third world country where the culture does not allow girls and boys to date openly but my parents are somewhat cool with it. When i was a child I thought my relationship with my parents was cool and I was very close to my dad. Due this pandemic I spent more time with my parents than I ever could and I realized that we do not have many things in common. I can be wrong and I want to be wrong but I cannot shake off this feeling that He loves my brother more than me. Maybe they have a special bond but he is neglecting my hard work and success. Whatever I do, It is never enough for him. I am tired and I do not want to feel this way. I guess I just have to accept the fact that I can never get the back the relationship I had with my Father. I am a 21st century girl and yes, I am a feminist. I believe in equality and I think this pisses him off. We are constantly arguing over that the fact that my younger brother has more freedom than I ever will. It may sound cruel, but I do not want to live here anymore. I am in my early twenties and I want to explore this world. I can’t let this feeling stop me. Wish me luck.