Mr. Dark Mind

I’ve been seeing this guy since my early teens. He chases me down to control me whenever he can. I’ve tried everything to ditch him but he is relentless. I hate him and I want him punished. He stalks me in my happiest days and tries to steal my fun in life. I’m talking about depression. Depression starting chasing me when I was fourteen years old. It has disabled my life in deep ways. I have gone into seclusion in my room and gone insane with sadness and regret many times in my life. He drags me into a dark closet where I’m trapped with everything and everyone that torments my mind. I hate him! He stole several years of my life telling me that I’m worthless and no one cares about me. He drowned me in self hatred. He makes everything in life seem meaningless and boring. He steals so much energy from me sometimes. He’s even tempted me to take my own life on many occasions. I spent many years researching and soul searching on a way to keep him out of my life. I finally found a way to keep him locked in his own dark closet as I escape into the light of love. It’s like turning the channel on the television. When I have tormenting thoughts of the past, I simply change my mind channel. I deliberately force myself to think upon good thoughts and memories. It’s not easy doing that when he has your neck in a strangle hold of fear. It takes time and practice but it does work and it gets easier and more natural the more you practice. I’m not going to live my life feeling regret and the fear of death. I don’t sit around and let him whisper his dirty lies into my mind anymore. He’s a liar! I am worth something! My life does matter. It matters to me and I am deeply in love with myself today. I won’t let him take my joy ever again. I control what roams around in my head. Mr. Dark Mind, you’re not welcome here anymore.

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