staralfur

  • Thanks! Glad to be writing again… but this place just doesn’t feel the same.

  • staralfur commented on the post, mutual 3 days, 21 hours ago

    Stream of conscious is kind of my style. Most of what I write here is just off the cuff, little to no planning goes into it, just inspirations in the moment. If the scatter fits the mood, I’ll call it deliberate. 😉

  • Being around him always made me feel sick. In retrospect, I should’ve kept my distance, but the burning desire of adolescent inexperience and a complete lack of impulse control had me like silly putty in his h […]

    • Beautifully written and a beautiful experience. Your last line reminds me that someone I loved ten years ago said to me then that someday we may find greater loves. That felt like she was betraying our great love, the greatest love ever, there could never be such a love again. Well, I still love her, but I also love another very much and I am married to her. So, perhaps you will never have that exact feeling, but if you are open to it, there will other glorious experiences in your future.

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  • staralfur commented on the post, relapse 6 months ago

    Thanks for reading! And the feedback!

  • staralfur commented on the post, relapse 6 months ago

    Every word that comes out of me is fiction.
    Thanks for reading!

  • We did the robotic pleasantries of having a platonic overnight guest; an offered glass of water, an awkward fluffing of sheets and instructions for sleeping, taking turns brushing teeth. And then there was the […]

    • its a weird kind of madness that leads us down these head-shaking paths. I love this. Its raw and real and says everything about what we all live through, thanks!

    • Enjoyed the dialogue especially the way you let us see your silent thoughts. I like your writing style. In real life, I find it frustrating when someone misleads me by not saying that they are thinking or meaning. Of course, you were not trying to build a relationship with this guy, so holding on to your most disruptive thoughts might have been wise.

      I wonder if this was real or just some fiction you created?

  • Jen’s wedding day was approaching, and while we hadn’t been the kind of friends over the last fifteen years that we had been in elementary school, we reconnected at a mutual friend’s stag and doe, and she had e […]

    • The writing is a little bit all over the place, perhaps stream of consciousness? Or perhaps, that is the way the thoughts go inside of the head of this fictional character? I guess I could figure that out if you had two characters in a story, one of which was more logical.

      I am rambling, but I find your writing interesting but a little scattered … and I am trying to figure out if it is deliberate or not.

      • Stream of conscious is kind of my style. Most of what I write here is just off the cuff, little to no planning goes into it, just inspirations in the moment. If the scatter fits the mood, I’ll call it deliberate. 😉

  • staralfur wrote a new post, love him. 8 months ago

    I told him I loved him only once in my life.

    I felt it the first time, in the sweltering heat of mid-summer. Sitting curled up on a towel because the wooden planks of the dock were too hot to touch and […]

  • I had spent too many emotionally draining hours with my siblings, ransacking our childhood home as our mom prepared to finally sell it, and finally let go of all that happened here. I’d rather be anywhere else […]

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