sharons anxiety & depression blog posted an update 2 years, 1 month ago
Yesterday, 9-1, was a rough day for my anxiety. I live with my son and his family, due to the fact that the boyfriend left and my finances were drained due to no financial help, anyways the day started off good. Then it happened. My daughter n law, who has anxiety and is on no meds, lost it. It began over their bills, then escalated from there. Her day went down hill fast. Kaiden, my grandson, is on the Autism Spectrum, gets the blunt of most of her anger. She can be abusive, in my eyes. That’s why the other day I posted about the police being at there door one day. It saddens me for him, he is so sensitive, she is selfish. Don’t get me wrong, she is a good mother, I know he can be a challenge sometimes. He has screaming meltdowns. But by the time evening came around she was better. Its during these stressful, anxiety moments of hers and his meltdowns, that sends me into an attack. I don;t speak up, I don’t speak my mind, it doesn’t do any good. If anything, it makes living here harder. So I stay wrapped up in my head. Also, I’ve been talking this sweet, kind guy I met on Zoosk. So far no red flags, he seems to be really into me. He makes me laugh with his sarcasm and jokes. We have set a date for this coming Sunday to actually meet at a restaurant on the water. He left all the details up to me. Which I didn’t mind. Today, we are going to call each other for the first time. I can’t wait to hear his voice. The anticipation is killing me. LOL I appreciate any feedback or followers.