Mypen

If you put yourself in my situation now, then you would say I am lucky enough knowing that I have everything for FREE. But, the actions they have shown, I am sure you won’t ever be as strong as I am now.

I keep on smiling, laughing and looks like enjoying but deep inside it feels like I want to die.

This isn’t mean I am being so sensitive. But, a thought of I am a person, I have a feeling. I may also feel hurt.

I am not in my place. So, I have to adjust until the very last day of my patience. Therefore, I have to accept all the rejections, foul words, cold acts, invisibility in their eyes. It hurts me so much, but I have nothing to do but to learn to eat and step on my pride. I have to be alive. I have to have this thick face to live with them. I have to…[Read more]

I’m still fighting. I’m feeling tired.

Time will come when people lose their respect to you.

This virus makes me even more useless.

Since I did this decision things aren’t the same anymore. I am alone. I have nothing. I have no one. I have no purpose.

I pity myself so much. I’m no used, no purpose to live. I feel so tired.

I regret.

People wish to have my life without seeing and thinking if I have lots of failures. Yes. I do have unlimited failures.

How can I own a house? I’m tired doing much adjustments and being very careful of everything I do.

I wanna cry, but I can’t. Just a pain it aches inside.

Now I understand. I have no value.

At this moment, I feel no support. I only ask for a time and a space to do my online job interview, but so unlucky. Late for everything.

When you are surrounded with people who don’t know what the word respect is, is like encouraging you to abuse your mental health. They just say whatever they want to say. They never think how it brings impact to the person they intent to. May not be the words which makes it bad but the tone of it.

Heal the world oh Lord.
We need You.