Diamond posted an update 2 years, 9 months ago
Its hard not to forgive
Its hard not to want to see others do good
Good is all I ever see In people
Lately bad is all ive ever been perceived as
im trying- I tell myself
Late at night
Thoughts just piling
And til this day the question remains
What exactly am i trying to do ?
Please you? Be someone im not for you?
Am i really that bad? Why cant i connect with others?
I love you but how can i tell you that
Can you make me feel secure?
I want to share my deepest secrets with you
but i cant seem to get the words out
Gave you all i can
I understand its not enough for you
I understand you dont have the patience for me
I understand its time for you to go
I understand i wasnt enough to hold on for
the questions that now remain
Why am i not enough for myself?
Why do i try for others more than i do myself?
Im the type to send paragraphs
Im the type to sit out all night with you
sharing deep conversation
Im the type to calmly communicate about an issue
because its me n you vs the problem
Not you vs I
Im the one putting in effort
Now i see why everyone around me is being removed
You are not meant for me
Our journey is now complete
Theres no love lost
Our paths are just completely different
My path is yet to be seen
But lord knows it’ll be a sight to see!