firewalker

I’m transcribing one of my old journals and I thought of something I hadn’t really put to words recently.

I mention C in the journal which brings back a memory of them saying that you liked me because of how […]

I deserve someone who wants to be with me. I deserve someone who I can go out and tell my friends about how great he is and how is such a good person. Someone who would cuddle with me and even if they want more, […]

Today I was talking to this lady online who was talking about how she had an issue with guys watching a certain type of porn and again, I felt echoes of you. I was telling her why she had that issue and where it […]

I’ve been thinking a lot recently. I was sitting in the parking lot of a store and I was thinking about how things are different now. But something is different in a good way.

I hit rock bottom, or a version […]

You never know what you have until it’s gone. I can’t go back, I can’t go backwards. Letting go of something that never wasis going to be hard.Letting go of the past is hardI’m lost in a sea of wordsAnd I know […]

We still talk, but we don’t know each other. Not really. You were my best friend.We were inseparable. We went through high school and college together and I will always treasure those “domestic” nights where we […]

I dreamed about you yesterday. Your mom and brother were there. We were at your place, but it wasn’t where you are now. It was actually the same place that I see you in each time I have dreamed about you. Big […]

It seems like it’s been forever since I’ve written here. Trying to figure out the next step in my life and there’s factors that are making it more complicated than it needs to be. But! I took steps to uncom […]

Hearing your words through someone else, it wasn’t a coincidence! The world has decided to show me the lesson of before, and I am eternally grateful.

I repeated a pattern of something else. But between her and […]

I’m going to change. This is rock bottom (or close enough) and it’s time for me to become a better person and do the right thing.

I never thought I would be in this position

I quite dislike people sometimes. It’s amazing how one thing can quite ruin an experience.

However, on the flip side, then there’s people who are willing to help you when you are struggling. And there is som […]

Nothing like being told you have to move out in a month while you don’t have a job, it focuses the mind wonderfully – on nothing but that.

When I said that this job would screw me over, I didn’t realize it […]

Future thoughts.

I’m so exhausted. Went to bed late, couldn’t fall asleep right away, woke up around 3 am and then couldn’t fall asleep again for an hour, then my parents pocket called me at 5 am and then I had to be up by 7:30. […]