Well this is my first post. I’ve decided to start this because I’m confused and I thought this would be a great place to express my thoughts. Well I’m gay…at least I think I am. I told my friends, step mother, her mother, and my brother. My mother said I have to tell my father. I didn’t tell them I’m confused. I was born a female. I dress kind of androgynous. I used to like this guy who looked like a girl, then started to like a girl who looked like a guy. Now I’m dating a guy and I start wondering if the only reason I can be sexual with this guy is because I wish I had his parts. I feel like that sounds really twisted, but what can I say? Life is twisted. Anyway I do not know how to think of it. I was really hoping someone can help me out with this or something. To be honest I don’t want to come out. I feel like where I’m at right now is best. However, maybe not being safe is better. One time a girl said I was disgusting just because I liked other females. It didn’t really bother be, I just hoped she just felt a different way about it. I had people call me a faggot, but I just tune them out. It’s just hard to listen to my real mother when she says terrible things about gays and trans people. Last year I learned to be okay with me being gay, and I handle my thoughts I had. I’m really just scared if my family starts to hate me because of it. Or just think it’s because of the media or the attention. I don’t even like attention. Plus why would I wanna have people hate me? It’s hard to believe people hate me just because the way I feel.