I saw my Dad tonight…

He stood there; 15 feet away from me.

It felt so far away for a moment…

I wished that we could cuddle.

But is that too far-fetched? Or greedy?

I simply do not know any better…

I wished we could more than ever ♡

I missed him while he was away…

He always leaves me here. Alone.

I am always doing better each and every day.

I wish he knew how badly I needed that one person to be there for me. How I have rented over 50 places since I was 16 years old. And how Foster care put me into hotels as a minor.

Why? Nobody really knows why. They said they were out of Fosterhomes; that’s why…

I missed Dad so much. I wish he would just give up and hold me close. And maybe we could just give up together and lay on the couch together watching movies or listening to the Hit List. Justin Beiber Re-runs, etcetera. Maybe just Netflix and some Porn or something…

Maybe we could live off cheap Ice cream and cereal. And live in our pajamas. That would be amazing. I would like it so much & go out for walks so we didn’t get fat. I miss him. Holy…

It hurts. That hes always gone. And I’m always alone. Story told. Story untold. And now I’m a drug addict; with almost bad teeth… without a proper job. And all I want is too buy a millionaire… without a care in the world.

Escorting was the stupidest decision of my life. $300/hour was nice, but it didn’t last long enough. I just wish dad and I could chill…

Its wierd that he was downtown tonight. I could not believe my eyes… I just wanted too hug him.

I just wanted him too take me home… I wish. I wish he would take me home long ago...

Dad seriously; just take me home. Let’s go…

I don’t want too be without you anymore.

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