Hello world, here are some bizarre thoughts

This is my first blog and I don’t believe anyone will pay attention to it so I guess it is important to start honestly.

Have you ever felt like you are doing everything you can and still feel drowning?

Yeah, I think I am there. Maybe it is about starting to change the way I live my life, one step at a time mantra.

Maybe it is about the way that I look at my life, maybe I am actually doing fine, I just gotta be patient and wait for the better times to come to me, I never liked to wait, not that I ever was a patient person, like ever.

I actually don’t know what can be done for the time being, but I know the state that I am in, let’s make a reminder on what state I am in today.

I live in a studio apartment, which is kind of small and I basically eat, work and sleep in the same room. It was nice at the beginning, but I guess it gets boring when you do it for 1.5 years now. A window that I could open to the sides instead of up would be better.

I don’t mind being alone. Most of the time I feel alone and other times I want to be alone, especially when I find myself in the middle of crowded places but people seem like background details.

My job is loaded with projects and responsibilities to fill. We keep on trying to meet the deadlines and up until now, it is going quite alright. I have some thoughts about the fulfillment though. Being a data analyst is one of the hot professions in today’s world, however, I think I can do better with some more morale and with some directions given at certain times. I mostly am bored at the moment and meetings are not helping.

Love life is kind of on hold. Have a distance relationship with a woman who is always busy to talk to. It feels like I am single, and I am not sure if I am sad or glad about the current situation.

Living in a country as challenging as Turkey takes some spirit away from your soul. It is pretty tough to keep fighting and keeping yourself up all the time. I am trying to exercise regularly but I can’t stop my habit to eat unhealthy junk food. It is a sad thing but eating your feelings away is a temporary solution. Hey, whatever keep you going is good, right?

So, yeah hi again. I was thinking about writing a blog for some time now and today is the first step towards this new hobby to preserve sanity and take a look at oneself’s thoughts and feelings in writing. After all, I am good at analysis, maybe I can figure some stuff out if I read my thoughts as someone reading somebody else’s blog.

More depressing writings later. For now, ciao ciao.

4 thoughts on “Hello world, here are some bizarre thoughts”

  1. Hello Arik, welcome to thoughts.

    We live in a modern world where everything is moving at break-neck speed and has to be done yesterday! Time schedules rule most of us and determine where we should be at any given moment, and this process begins in childhood when the school time-table enters our lives and shapes our behaviour and expectations for the future. It’s no wonder people get depressed, the rat-race is unrelenting giving little oportunity for anyone to get off and breathe – to take a moment to absorb information and be able to process it before the next time table looms into view. It seems that we are in a constant state of playing catch up, trying to stay ahead of a game where rules put in place mean we can never really win, only take part in.

    You may need a time-out.

    Open spaces where you can reflect on days gone by and gain a positive perspective for the future.

  2. Hi Jules,

    Thank you for the warm welcome.

    I agree that world turns very fast these days, we simply are focused on accomplishments instead of the success journey since everything should have been done yesterday every day. It is quite a dilemma for many people.

    I never mind the pace though, most of the time I enjoy challenge, I thrive on it and exceed expectations. The problem however lies on the fact that I am simply bored to carry on, and this situation bring more complexity since coming up with a quick solution is getting harder. However, I am confident to come up with a solution, my mentality doesn’t really make me stay down, I know I will get back up.

    Hope that you are fine and happy, thank you for reading my blog and have a nice day.

  3. I like how you want to use your blogs to analyze yourself. Many people keep personal journals and reflect on them to help them move forward….to alter their paths…they journal for many reasons really.
    I am not a “blogger” in the sense of the word….but once in a blue moon ill read a blog or 2. I am the type of person who looks within to do my problem solving when they arrive. When I worked and work issues would arise I would sometimes go sit in my bosses office and ask him to just listen. As I talked and I could hear the situation ….the answers would all come to me. He knew I just needed a sounding board and I would always find my own solutions. I had wonderful bosses who understood me and my processes 😉
    I do know we all have different ways to deal with these curveballs life throws at us and I sure hope your blogging helps you.

    Welcome to Thoughts Arik 👋

    1. Thank you for reading Monica. Indeed, most of the time we forget to look at ourselves from another angle, therefore it is important to stop and stare once in a while.

      A very unique example of how you and your boss connect from time to time with your self-reflected speech approach. Thank you for sharing. I am hoping that blogging thoughts will at least take some of the weight off my shoulders.

      Have a nice day and thank you for the warm welcome.

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