February 7, 2018

I’ve been sick for a week now with pneumonia. I don’t know how long it takes to get better but I can say that I feel much better now than I did the past 4 days. What worries me is going back to work. Work is not a happy place for me because every single day I have to be humiliated. Every single day I have this battle going on in my head and sometimes I don’t have the strength or energy to fight those battles. I just pray from the bottom of my heart that everything goes well. I’m tired of making mistakes at work and I’m tired of being so nervous and insecure all of the time. I want to at least try to like my job, no matter how humiliating and hard it may be for me. I want to learn to be patient and understanding and also helpful. I know eventually I’ll have a job that makes me happy and a job that I am passionate for like writing. I need to be positive. I have one shot at this one life, and I want to make the best of it.