- I have been asked a lot of time what hysteria I have from getting married. Today I am disclosing the secret of my hysteria.
In Past I attempted affairs but I was biased as compared to my brothers. The people I used to fancy used to bias me and fancy any of my brothers. It is reality a perception developed in me that perhaps I am worthless and good for nothing. I can’t support a family it is the only reason women bias me and fancy my brothers.
When my elder brother used to count those fellows that he perceived liking me. They used to like him and bias me. But he never realized it.
My heart was broken again and again with such bias. Women bias caused in me attitude of choice rather than compelling a women towards me.
Once I wrote a story in such a grief where I mentioned sex desire of women as apple of discord and I wanted to eat it up. Don’t be scared. It was just innocence I was mentioning getting hot boobs of a women showing artificial lust actually redirecting it to my siblings.
Well It was just an innocent thinking that women get hotter just to betray and compel my siblings. Today is the same situation.
It is quoted as to feed emotional boobs and allow those suckers that measure up to the standards set by these…as I am not a sucker.
Sometimes I thought as I does nothing that’s the reason of such bias. Reality is I was not entitled properties so that I may survive and women gets security in desiring me. That is still cause of that bias.
I had excessive quantity of sperms and it is still for sure the reproduction and healthy reproduction was possible from me of generation of my father. It was something that was targeted.
But believe me lack of wealth and support from emphatic well wishers remained still the bone of contention.
Today my reputation is of a special dependent human being. But I have a question and many questions…Did I used to be like that as well?
When I had prospect future why I was immorally biased
What avenges I faced when even I was 5 years old and even my values were not specified to me what sins The Lord had started recording
Who manipulated my wrong information until obstinately I was destined to a terrific end
Why I was blocked to peacefully fly to a feasible place
What threats they had from me until The Lord made these presumptions a reality
Who bullied my younger brother to take such idiot actions against me
I am still not hundred percent educated from women reproductive cycle such as what menstruation is why women use Pads Why breasts size enlarge and small ..
But Now actually I am fully educated what adolescence is and I am Adult still…..
What condition directed me to imaginations and dream world and why made me daydreamer who shattered my dreams and made them castle of sand
Who abused my hormonal desire and broke my heart into pieces again and again
So much achievements still monetarily struggling can’t been able to cash in any of his achievement that he delivered
Never esteemed for what he actually worth or he is
Why there is difference between actual self and perceived reality
Does a special reproduce same genes….Madness is not genetic You can stone mads but you can’t feel the pain lets feel the pain
Every pondering person is Mad….or they define geniuses a madness as well
Why they feed psychological patients drugs………….doesn’t to impede their brain and noman and nowoman them sexually isn’t this a terrible shame…
They have no mechanism of defining psychological issues in medical language.
Does Technology lack potential of make specials lucrative for society family and country?
If this is due to weak sperms or development in womb disorder …The child is it culprit. ?
Why is he deprived of reproduction rights…?
Why such large number of transgender exist in society when actually they are born with a sex.
Are they controlling population by creating a third gender in the society?
Well I hope the world will give better reply of these inquires.
I feared how I will support my family where people perceive he will reproduce same mad children where everyone know sperms brings normal child in world.Madness is not genetic. It’s growth problem and It’s callousness of avenging minds.Obviously The development still takes place such as intellectual development in a nutshell known as Frog of well
I was afraid and concerned about the survival of my children and apathy that my spouse is going to practically face at some point in time I thought I am totally incompetent to live and just suicided when I knew This state will never support my children monetarily till their university Qualification completion take place..
Hence I am rapidly aging almost losing golden days of youth and erection timing sperm quality to reproduce healthy generation
They forced me to job to get married I did jobs before discriminating me nobody thought how I will survive every body said you are burden for yourself don’t be tornment for others
But God did not let me die I am rapidly aging but not dying.
It is to my great shock that my family clans are avenging me with justifications why they did not gave their daughter to me themselves He is insane He is Mad Mads are not married.
Despite of all past history I was not a transgender to be dealt like transgenders
These people handicapped me mentally but nobody is standing by my side in rehabilitating recovery I am living on artificial intelligence perhaps this mobile phone gps will be enough for drone strike.
I know well what circumstances my baby sister is facing just because she is their sister my children after me will face more apathy than that my wife may be forced to earn to feed them or instead of getting mad she may spit back everything on them In these 10 years I earned more than 7 lac rupees but I can’t get married I can’t step on my feets
I can’t get departmental protection medically My mental handicapped disability is still hidden in department in fear of getting fired.
Now time is my sister has fancied a love marriage and very soon with in months she is getting married After all an employee is getting married to unemployed day long discussion about property inheritance of his infertile uncle and I am facing transgers like mocking remarks of people curious to know reason of family bias towards me reason of their bias is avenge of my attention seeking horrible email but still I became US soldier A required.
Nodoubt I am watching not ending curse results in world Corona is result of negligence and superiority complex of Gods of this earth its mosquito in their noses like pharoah of Abraham period I don’t claim this is a curse from me but it is reality Its God avenging from Gods of this earth but I only onced cursed in 2006 when I was failing in university when they put my survival on stake and raised mental health questions although I was academically performing Later on I had gone psychedelic because of over 10 year psychiatric treatment. And to that extent psychedelic I have stopped making sense earlier I used to make sense I could not survive Jobs that I proved I could have performed normally but people now discriminated my mental condition first intolerated me on work place and as now they say my senses can’t perceive normally they are right Can they compensate that time when they snatched my love from me by almost ending my academic carrier can they compensate that time when i fall even getting prestigious HRM manager opportunities and even Banking jobs When Bank staff tried to No man me by attempting to burn my sperm duct but he miscued although he was dead sure Can there be a parallel law as compared to world laws Real reason behind leaving banking Job is this specially their intolerance regarding me I will never forgive them for ruining my life Can they return my young age period Now compensation is not easy I will get going but you need to compromise damages or kill me let me operate from paradise…
When actually I started struggling in perceiving and making sense I started getting abused when being handsome I was aroused sexually and my adulthood has just started due to burn effects erectile muscles started late erecting but when I used to watch erotic item songs These used to make me uncontrolled and I used to have erections but although erection was while nocturnals but once errected blood used to locked in and I used to only rub to orgasm to lose erections by God I weaken it but never pumped it never damaged it that’s why muscles healed back and until now it is fully functional and long but curved…
Really My mom hallucinated white old man spirit that warned her saying she will be mistaken …
It was my mom that educated me and I gave it up foreever and it was in nick of time and wounds healed back and it is science miraculously I only weaken the muscles that healed back and did not damaged it
I was sexually bullied abused and tempted for homosexuality but as I was perceptibly struggling I was madly suiciding but My mind miraculously got rehabilitation Even my stomach got Anorexia because of malnutrition in short I was slow poisoned in a sense and it was believed I will gradually die but This time spirit of my Granny appeared to my Mom and it strictly ordered my mom to take care of me
Later on My mind showed miraculous rehabilitation in an Autistic paralyzed mind and remaining unbelievable wonders are before the world …
.I took up these practical issues and faced rebuke fake fabrication humiliation bias and psychological manipulation to obviously get rid of me…God Just lead them astray in their obstinacy..They Just experienced a Convex error …
My younger brother term my symptoms as a mindset..but I have been living with such perceptiveness for more than 23 years and seem like a mad loitering Dog to observers miserly always lead them to deviation.These are those symptoms with which I had been left to ruthless hands of time and after repudiation surely will perish…well This would be last nail in the cascade….i tried my level best to culture an environment where I can survive although in every inferring developed mind…but not from I can’t escape because I bullied a society perhaps to receive Ashes….I have one distinction problem The legal sex and illegal sex There are societies that claim hormonal sexual desire as the satanic desire these ignorants although read arabic bible but don’t perceive In this bible not only polygamy of 4 wives at one time is permitted but also paid wives or contract marriages are permitted Incest is prohibited that today reveal that The science is proving blood closeness is dangerous….But some societies find hormonal desire as satanic desire…prohibited sex means sex with others wives or possessions ..I can’t differentiate between prohibited sex and legal marriages because the money we earn is required for marriages
Well I hope this constructive Critical Analysis will not be minded as it’s undressing the social evils that claim their purity and righteousness….
I have only one answer it’s just superiority complex and nothing.
2006 Latest Instance was a woman that i interacted and might have mentioned in a presumptuous post haste fancied my elder brother got his cell No and called him saying “How are you doing darling what’s up and the way she used to humiliate my sentiments “Cut the Crap You are sick fuck off” I know very well this chatting addiction came in me from big b but believe me the one he loved left her because he did not gathered property or Gold out of his income while my younger brother has much greater luck his fiance is paying all the expenses and requirements of their marriage but to tell the truth I am still so far unmarried and problem is my dementia and gradually my memorisation is decreasing When I set out on travel it seem a handsome human Old Chimpanzee is being carried on cage….Well I should realize now I am mentally in very critical condition but for being lucky like my younger brother I should have sound mind like him…I even believe there is an artificial soul in me because I tried my level best to depart rather than living in worst than brain cancer mind and young age dementia…..Today I still have threats of being uprooted from miss cut the crap and She is reason I did not got awarded good grades when she passed out I did better I know pretty well how much savage how much Raw I could not travel to UK because I did not had a spouse and I did not had money or a degree to job..until now my financial condition is not improving and I am at my wit;s end how much such women go savage .. I did not emailed to blackmail but to pave a pathway to fly to UK and demanded expenses from Miss cut the crap But nobody understood me properly I became victim to educational terrorism I was blocked from completing qualification I jumped over obstacles That Miss cut the crap warned me of police action and words were I have understood you as much as I can but She will not tolerate further She think I am not Ok She will take police action against me and I am facing social bias bullying and discrimination Wow I successfully paved the pathway and nobody stood with me I did not survived I struggled for even marriage and My identification was defamed denied…
and how presumptuous I had gone…Big B was eligible for her to be fancied….And The one that left me just she knew I am childlike and childish I became oh bro from dear darling …but actually she was coerced to married away she tried her level best to make it happen but customs denied to set such example..This badly injured my sentiments and the one that kept on inquiring what’s that secret of your heart and I can’t propose …but on the day of her marriage it was too late to amend and without having wings to fly overseas castle of sand finally dissolved in land….That’s stupor of my hysteria and my sinful presumptions lead me astray and troubled my near ones and supporters….
You can believe that the one that got immature for me. And I biased for the Miss’ Cut the Crap’ and the one that just plainly ignored my elder bro with simple words ‘She is not interested’ but actually Wanted me to come in there.
This all was because it was just spinning the mind and not practically involving in…I was although mobilizing it but unknowingly I was the source of mobilization.
Obviously I never understood my intellectual Development is taking place but it’s chained in a mind on artificial intelligence.
Obviously my geniuses will blow worlds minds when they will realise people here still perceive not or they had deliberative obstinacy against true perception
Whatever if I did cyber-bullying But I remained as easy as a catch but nobody caught it I provided open opportunity to catch me and I am not willing to give a bring in my life every betrayal but someone who will be my eyes and is enough independent to not to beg after me That will never feel me embarrassed for normal merman functionality…I have been looking for a mermaid and obviously not every women is going to live in this heaven but the one accepting me for what I am..
Nodoubt I have been demoralized from many obstinate people but There is a clear message for them I have realized how quicker my curse torments inflicting soul towards me …and what way my opponents collapse …from the experiences what mockers faced or destined in past ..
In extreme grief My sufferings curses involuntarily …
Its reality out of this state any women is ready but Avengers have blocked every feasibility by going against God…They are not fighting me but with my eternal refuge..
Dream intuition doesn’t matter Women dying Women filthily naked doesn’t matter revelations showers of mercy are magic Disasters are to make risk management plans but only thing that matter is their willingness Their obstinacy and finding every fault that they can bow with poisoning arrows as propagated defamation to not to accept me and their obstinacy to destroy me..
As nobody is willing I am unmarried aging 33 where beard and hairs are totally white and no need to find further fault as I am perfectly Imperfect….obstinate Women will be deeply in trouble with their sucking boobs in next life….but conversely speaking only obstinate women and I am biased against them I confess..
People with any Sort of mental ailment are not married here because Government does not support their Children like Great Britain and women can’t keep up pace with them because they think straight and God lives in their heart But here they are interacted apathetically and treated like beggars socially.And stigmatised as Madmen.It took me 33 years to know this and I was right I had to fly well I could be a Divine favor for all unmarried men and women in the world but now everybody will taste marriages and no noman and nowomen will exist in this world but fully functional transgenders will reproduce.. It is fairly quoted A Transgender gave birth a baby whole people killed it with kissing ..
I have a strange feel in any kind of in contact My body feels pinning spikes that proactively clinch my dare as This is a warn don’t dare this but when dared these spikes multiply in my body to pin me at once punishing me for what went wrong This feel had never let me have fun perhaps it was unable to find legal way to give vent to the feel..
This never made me addict of Soft women tissues because I was never brought in prostitution or legal contract marriages
I know Because was by nature Women loving by practice women biased because I lacked Wealth to pay to spent time
And This feel kept me away with spikes torturing in my entire body
My mom termed it ‘Kandery’
I inherited this feel from her “spikes in one’s body
Women of authority should not bias a rightly guided person that she obstinate because she can’t keep up with him and he get debris on him just to ill smell but not sex her she will manipulate him and his sympathizers will be killed or prone to risk including Rightly guided women..
How I will provide her bread when I don’t have anything to eat Economic crisis despite of to be paid rendered services and being robbed of his possessions and income no entitled jewels and properties Were main cause of Being rejected for marriages in this state where only solution was to uproot a superman….Women reject me because she don’t accept my Autism and I am rejected being considered as toddler or chimpanzee although it is Autism….
Here The marriages are made so unattractive for common people that they reproduce and leave children alone to face the practical life Marriages here is not name of sex marriages are name of responsibility they are required to support their family but those lunatics that can’t support themselves how they will support entire family.
The major hurdle in my marriage and job survival remained my mental condition. Whenever a women hears about me that she has a proposal from my family she first informs her he is a senseless person and he is mentally sick. when they clearly say I am uncompromising for a marriage whatsoever i am part of a developed family I am aging and I am not getting a social approval or acceptance to live If my body language and random eye contacts are criticized There had been no greater virtue than marrying me.
Obviously its matter of generation progressing more than other siblings thats why even my elder brother discouraging me from getting marriage generation of madman like me may not progress and it may not burden on their pockets The situation leaves me in lurch hence to be honest I am looking for marriages not so called single marriage but I know my younger brother is marrying without waiting for my issue but I am welcoming proposals from part of world that owns me hence my last full sperm orgasm ejaculation was before receiving psychatric drugs but after that I am experiencing few drops of dense white sperms and not that orgasm that I had last time returning from Asylum but Its drugs induced as well..That’s showed me I am being dramatized until I have sexual dysfunction just rebuking me for pure and impure.. 2019 I have lost sperm ejaculation and I have become burden on my family My gametes are not producing sperms or few drops that show they may have still sperm producing capacity So I have been pissed off…..but good news is in 2020 I have recovered back white semens in few drops althoung not in greater volume but greater quantity If I am not uprooted I can atleast reproduce now and for earninig I will get going for next 25 years If I lived that long.
but My potential opponents and critics are more than my well wishers in this state…The thinking that is proven unique and valid here in this state it is known as schizophrenia while its Intuition in actual..
I have not been only targeted but approached physically to families where my proposals knocked at My workplace and society has been poisoned. Firm reputation has been built Although white and black skins did not minded my yellow and white skin but here brown skin totally rejected me ….The real reason is I have been rejected from having rights of marriage and time is flying I am aging and finally my younger brother is marrying If my cardiac is arrested I will leave you all unmarried and dramatisations are before world
Because of burns I have sleeping erections and nobody sexes that way and I can’t propose each and every women but the one accepting me
Gradually I am degenerating and I am getting mentally challenged because even I am struggling in making sense Its clearly showing I am using Hawking communication mechanism to interact I am reading and making sense
Well If I would have been married earlier I might have reproduced normal me and my home and family members might have kept me alive in my offspring but I struggled for ten years to make my marriage possible 2019 I sent marriage proposals but Lack of any possessions and property and only 33500 income in this increasing prices economy I don’t have my own house I can’t ride and drive I am in Autism resulted my last hope atleast getting married in this country and i will be stonned garment less when these fragile supporting hands will leave me..
Although I am 33 but I look old because of my white beard moustache and hairs even my body hairs are white
I have gone so much helpless that I can’t take a single step independently
Nobody brings trash of someone in his home and don’t spread his debris in home actually I am not as much ignorant as much irreversible damage has been done to my brain even when I struggle in making sense how I will relay on short lived sensory information that starts getting cognitive load on my brain hence I look like a monkey it is reality everybody have to accept their specials or they are going to be trouser less mads and will be stoned everywhere..
How I will support entire family time is proving anybody that tried to make possible my marriage faced horrific consequences
Now I have gone mentally challenged and Condition is evidencing
If I wanted to get married I have to built my room purchase furniture and built a home kitchen attached bathroom but Being handicapped mentally and defected sexually I did patience until a miracle from God comes I migrate country like UK USA NZ and Australia I am defected sexually but not a transgender and not a noman I would have 100 children if married in teen age or 20 A decade earlier I started my struggle to survive I did not performed less surviving but This society failed to adopt me and tolerate me and I failed to culture a tolerant favourable environment for me.
My siblings have already built rooms furniture dowry and jwelery from family but in this aging age I am facing questions and raised objections of people I am mentally and sexually special will their women spend rest of their life with me.
Dad is saving money to built a room built if she also raised objections on my mental health as you are mentally sick cut the crap and filed divorce she will even take registered property with her in court and it is routine here in todays women
From my birth till this age Satellites if in record will clearly evidence not even a single word here is corrupted or biased and if people perceived my younger brother is going for a love marriage where her wife is so much possessive for her and I am still going unmarried then shockingly I am having now very low quantity of sperms that at some point in time had superman quantity of sperms only treasury that I ever have to leave behind generation of my dad but for sure my brothers are also men and above all they are well established normal simply its from 2006 to 2019 I have been writing but now I quit because I can never live this life and I am incompetent to live this life independently My Brothers and Dad are against my marriage and even in hidden I am biased for a marriage because The person that will birth the children who will bring them up how he will provide support to his wife and any time he loses his job and income what is guarantee he has a monetary protection …I am afraid from future of my children I will enter 34th year and I am 33 now this 16 october.
What is reason instead of dramatising my marriage realisation for 10 years feeding me anti sexual and sperms reducing drugs until I am having ejaculation failure earning virtue by marrying me They just kept on enjoying my restlessness and Showed this show to entire world…What virtue They earned I know My God has prepared the circumstances in my favour and Miracles are happening to save me but even God mutate my opponents They will not relax their obstinacy towards me …
This state is state of people with reproduction capacity but as compared to rest of world weak manpower where these people although are fully reproductive and muscular lack erectile timing …The doubt their women kill them burn them and they perceive their women as child birthing factory…As I mentioned above I had much timing in erection like White men and Black Americans Africans or Arabians but I was defamed as noman until put on psychiatric treatment life time of depresssion schizophrenia Melancholia Delusion Bipolar mania and anxiety and from 2006 until now 2019 I have gone addicted to them Now I am having Finally Epilepsy and schizophrenia drugs..
I have become a show before world because whenever anybody asked me about my marriage Now I have many times one reply I don’t have money so I don’t have honey My mind is paralysed and My problems are too many I don’t have property as security and after me where she will go for shelter Dad will not tolerate a progressive generation from me Without realizing the issues because of my rightthinking If somebody say I am master of speaking This is something that challenge world sane psychology 2020 I have gone infertile and requiring medication only reason I am hesitated marriage.
I kept on pleading a marriage until I had reproduction capacity but now I have lost motive and goal to survive for If even workplace colleagues rebel against their officers in my opposition and try to create public violence when officials try to defend me They try to cut off my provision They never appreciate level of improvement in me all that they do is violating mass building perceptions and exposing me before community as a corpse If I prepared 13 students completely rest partially that means I am totally zero there is no improvement such a fragile stick that gets broken with such pressure so unreliable unstable Until Even psychatrists pissed me off and during night orgasm no liquid gets out zero ejaculation that means when gonads will produce sperms or secrete liquid we will than come to know this…..I am horrid terrorised being part of this state to the extent I have been undertaken by educated capitalists of this state Don’t Demand a global marriage from this state of a paralysed minded person like me They will encounter madman and then reply back.
I have been consistently facing such sexual issues that were drug fed When first time marriage demand emerged from me I was fed psychiatric drugs from psychiatrics my mom sister brought proposals at home I was experiencing drug induced impotency And in banking I was not a noman and had excessive sperms I was coerced to quit even after 9 month of service now after 2 years of service It is my fault students are mocking at me stereotyping me and not following what I teach them While competency level of teachers is they are pin pointing me how are you doing translation as what are you doing when I translated it as how are you Now my gonades are not producing sperms and I am going for final treatment as if this is also resperidal induced and not pubic hair removal minor incapability In such conditions how Could have married..I ask this question from world.?
For my heads my mental handicapped mind is an art its not art its crime of others in making him differently abled…and in every part of world laws for differently abled people are different that such third world countries white color murder
The major reason I am unmarried I am unmarried is Those part of mom family members that are defaming I am unsound mind abnormal Dewana in Arabic and in this religion dewanas are kept unmarried because they don’t live in their true senses…That is that defamation that resulted in psychedelic mind from a socially construct defamation..They physically approached to homes where my proposal went and just called me Mad but I am not going to leave them in my curses and even after my death these are people that black magic me
Such religiously bounded people don’t consider people for marriage based on their virtuous characteristics but they consider people based on their money status and profession. Its truely said people of my state are in superiority complex and these are basically money property and lands owned based on wealth inflow these people survive whatever I achieved in life I was not capable to be married by my Dads family and Mom family is high in status Now when I have been defamed to that extent that my handicapped mind became my crime and my psychedelic mind has become reason of deprieving me from marital rights with no son in which these divine attributes are transferred Where my son David was destined to come in this world …I was only plotting to reproduce a miracle child David in this world Each and every women feel the heat to undertake two worlds success and to fly skies..I have not raped or Sexed your women now my wife deserve security from your lust She would be mother of righteous
Only reason they blocked my survival God did not let them progress just because of their obstinacy…