6 of Wands..Victory

Nope, not going to do it. Not going to write another cliché “new year, new me” post. Same old me here and why not? I like me! Ok, let me deflate my ego and get to what I really logged in to write about. Stupid love again (I’m laughing as I type that)… I’ve grown more and more impatient, because I’m so ready to be with someone again. The ready part is a victory in of itself. I was stuck on he who shall not be named for so long. But, it was the flirtatious dialogue that I had with Mike that I realized I really liked him and the thought of he who shall not be named didn’t exist anymore. I feel free from him (and that I type with a sigh of relief). I’m drawn to Mike. I feel a fire towards him. I haven’t felt that in a long time. The only part that sucks is he ghosted me. So…I’ve moved on from that and this is why I am impatient…because I had a taste of new love. I had a taste of what else is potentially out there. Imagine that your starving and you’re sitting at the table at your favorite restaurant. The waiter brings you a delicious steak, cooked perfectly, seasoned just right, so juicy and you don’t even need a knife to cut through it. You have one bite, and it’s everything that you expected and more, but the waiter comes back and takes it away. Can you imagine how lustful one would become after that steak? The desire? That’s how I feel about wanting someone new now. I’m ready. It took me a long time to get here. I’m proud of myself.