i have failed yet again.I am now exhausted with these failures with this constant trend of failing again and again. Failures are the pillars of success i know but if the pillar keep on falling myself i am bound to be crushed by a body among trapped among fallen cement .its like my life has been eclipsed by darkness no matter what i do how much effort i put in i already know the outcome FAILURE thats what it is.All my life hardwork put by me from when i was small to the person i am right now nothing seems to work now.I dont feel like crying either coz that wont do any good not because crying proves that I have lost but because it simply doesnt matter.

I am tired now exhausted to the extent that its been reflected in my behaviour .

i dont know what to do how to face myself .With the current condition i am in, one could easily take a bullet to his head so as to end the trouble for everyone associated to me but thats not an option .I am not choosing that option  to prove that i am not a coward but simply doing such an illogical acts would inflict more pain on others plus i have bill thats due for me so untill i clear that due i cant leave.its true in the end the bill comes due.

with my current deteriorating mental health coz of my failures i fear i might really loose it or say something that i would regret :'(