Where to begin? I am not really sure.
I know I am so grateful to have found this blog because I am in desperate need to speak to someone about my problems. See, I am isolated mom and I by my dad. I do not want to give out any public info on myself but only about certain points in fear of being recognized by someone.
I will say as much as I feel comfortable saying.
My mom and I live with her husband/my dad unfortunally he is a Nassacic I hope I spelled that correctly. They have been married for 50 miserable years. She wanted to leave him when I was a little girl but I cried so much she stayed because partly me and because she thought in God’s eyes it was the correct thing to do. I feel so much guilt because I know if it would have not been for me she would have left a long time ago and perhaps met a man would treat her like the Queen she is and deserved to be. But because of me mostly and she won’t say it was because of me she is in a loveless and miserable marriage. I feel so guilty and so horrible.
I have so much guilt in me but we can’t do anything about the past.
I have had a horrible childhood because of HIM! The man I unfortunally call dad and his wacko family!
I have so much to share with you, please be patient I will get to everything.
That’s all for now until maybe again later or tomorrow for sure.
Thank you so kindly for listening to me I already feel better getting this much off my chest.
Take care,
Little Girl Blue And Lost.
there are so many people who put their own happiness and well being for “their children”. I find it completely foolish. If they did leave, they’d find both themselves and their children would be much better off. Well, that neither here nor there, I hope you writing will be the therapy you seek, I know it has helped me over the years. I wish you well.