depression

Something bad happened here.

I thought I had forgotten about you and that you were gone. I thought that I had moved on but I didn't. I can't touch another person without thinking about you and it's killing me. You've made me weak. I was able to fight the thoughts again but I was...

Breathing is even becoming too much..

My depression has been getting worse, a lot worse, thoughts are getting way more intense and lately I've been getting mad at everything. But at school I just try to smile because the one thing I hate most is getting asked if everything is ok? So I...

inches away

School can be stressful. not the acedemics of it, just in general. first things first, i have NEVER been to a school where they made you do work. I know what you're thinking. all schools give work. does it include taking out trash? shoveling the...

I'm Suicidal

I'm suicidal I'm depressed- I can't get these emotions off my chest. I'm anorexic I binge- Whenever I look down at that plate, I cringe. I'm a cutter I'm bipolar- Why can't I get my feelings in order? I suffer I deal- ...

I'm Back!

Hey guys! So I know it's been a while and thank you to all the wishes and prayers. I hope you all had an amazing nine days. Yes I was counting. But my stay at the hospital really put me in to perspective. I've been preaching about silver linings and...

Attention Whores

I used to think when people told me "they're doing it for attention." That nobody is that desperate for attention. Nobody is so desperate for attention that they would drag a blade across their arm or deprive their body of food. Boy, was I wrong. ...

Dancing with the Devil.

The day passed quite quickly, anticipation building up by the hour. Michael joined me at my house again, where I prepared myself for a night out at The Den. I usually didn't, but there was a reason I wanted to tonight. Since Michael was now in on...

Deep dark hole of depression

I'm too fat to survive. I won't have that body that I always dream about. I won't be liked by strangers, or even my own family. I won't be good enough at anything I do, especially school. I'm so worthless I can barely breathe. I'm constantly choking...