thoughts

Just a little bitty beeper trying to hold on to sanity. This is my spot for offloading it. 

I have a ton of poetry in my earlier posts. Much of it is mediocre at best but some of it's quite good or so I believe and have been told. Usually it comes rolling out my fingertips all on it's own, driven by the beast and the darkness and the madness with little or no participation from my brain. LOL! That doesn't sound good does it?

I tend to be more open these days then I ever used to be. Too open for my own good really.
Thoughts and it's people get exclusive credit for that.

I've been to hell and back, repetitively, and understand how deep, dark, crushingly intense depressions and wild, high flying manic spells feel, how they make you feel, how they twist your thoughts and fill your head with thoughts that you know are not your own. And I've been a self harmer... actually still am. There's no such thing as an ex self harmer, only one who hasn't self harmed in x number of years. It's been 3 years for me and I'm going strong though temptation still rears it's ugly head at times.

In short... I understand and... I'm willing to listen without judging. So if you're in need of an ear, if you're deeply depressed, suicidal, cutting, burning or just need someone to listen to you... please, I encourage you to drop me a private message. I'm a pretty good listener and I never carry tales.

I'm also a grandfather (pop pop) which implies I'm a father and a husband too. That inferral would be correct. In addition I am a brother and a son. I like to pretend that I'm a man whenever my wife gives me permission. (ROTF!)

I definitely like my beer and even an occasional bottle of wine. Perhaps too much. I've recently broken the chains of encroaching alcoholism... totally shocked that I could actually do it.

I have a strong faith and only vague political beleifs. I will not argue either of them though I can be tempted to discuss them. In both cases I let my intuition for what's right and wrong guide me. My parent's did a fine job raising me and so I think I'm well armed in that department.

I think I'm plenty old enough with enough experience to have a good handle on what's important and neither political nor religious affiliations fit that bill. The heart is what counts... from it springs everything else.

Well then... here's wishing you a most perfect day. Be good, stay strong, always face the world with a smile and never, ever turn your back on a hug. They truly do make the world go round.